Papa, I know that it wasn’t your choice to leave me here all alone by myself. It was our fate and destiny, but actually it was hard for me to cope with it. I was 23 when you left, yet I acted like a little girl who needed her papa to take care of her.
I was devastated by your sudden departure to the extent that I couldn’t deal with it. It felt like the end of the world and that I would never ever be happy once more. I was friendless and I had to deal with this world and its problems on my own. I really needed your presence right by my side to assure me and to tell me “it’s okay; I know you can do it “. But actually what I kept wishing for didn’t come true. So I ended up wasting 5 years of my life mourning your loss papa till I, eventually, realized that you will never come back and I’d better accept this harsh and bitter truth.
By the time I accepted this truth, I found out that I have already gained myself other losses. My girl friends were getting married, having babies, getting their masters’, having successful careers, and so on and so fourth. They were dreaming and their dreams came to life.
I was the only one who hasn’t moved an inch forward and I realized that it’s time for me to shake off the drama and get a move on and start doing something with my useless life. I felt like I must mean something to someone even if this someone was myself. As a result, I continued my education till I had a PhD in fine arts; consequently, beginning my career as a painter. I started painting all over the world in Vienna, New Delhi, London, Los Angles, Rio Digennaro, Cairo, Havana, and Sydney; thus, making my dream of travelling the world come true. My paintings were exhibited in art galleries everywhere. I even met “my prince charming”.
I want you to know that I am not the person I used to be and that I have learned my lesson; yet, my love to you still remains untouched. I still remember you every second of every day. I feel like you are still around.
Papa, I love you and I still miss you like hell, but I can deal with your absence for you are always present in my heart and mind.
Your little princess.
Witten by: Sara EL-Naggar